I'm not go

Apuntes

I'm not going to do this. No. I’m not going to give in to writing . It's just... (Points to the letter) ...the proof. The proof that I was right all along. Writing is a game. A madness that doesn’t pay the rent. The key word in this letter is: "does not fit". And they are absolutely right. It never did. Normal people have jobs with limits. There is a limit in the budget, a limit in the contract, a finish line. On the tennis court, there is a service line. It's predictable. It's fair. Writing, on the other hand... (Pause, sighs) ...is a black hole. You sit down, you face the page, the same word over and over until it fits. And you know what the easiest thing about going back to tennis is? Honesty. I remember my first tournament. I was fifteen. I was too tired, my knee was knocking against the floor. But the ball... It was a whisper, so low it almost scraped the ground. The universe paused just to say: "Good shot, Elias." The court is like a chessboard where every move is clear. Writing... (Looks intently at the letter) ...writing is like swimming. You never see the bottom. You never know if you're going to drown. The truth is not their rejection, it is my fear. The rejection from te...